Time to think

Time to think

Sunday, January 17, 2016

Heart of a dog

Heart of a dog

Today I yearn for the heart of a dog

If I had a dog's heart, I would always live in the present.
I would forgive easily.
I would wait patiently for everyone in my family to come home.

If I had the heart of a dog

I would sleep whenever I was tired and wake up just to stretch.
I would be curious about everything I heard or smelled.
I would bark at anything that moved.

I would roll in the snow.
I would run full tilt and jump off the dock.
I would love all children on sight.

If I had the heart of a dog

I would always be ready for a ride in the car.
I would play and play and play everyday
With my toys, a stick, my friends or anything.

I would be happy just to be with my family.
I would guard my personal space and have a favorite chair.
I would growl but never bite.

If I had the heart of a dog

I would get bored easily then go find someone to amuse me.
I would let my family ease my fears with hugs.
I would eat snow for breakfast.

I would chase squirrels joyfully without wanting to catch them.
I would adopt the habits of my family and insist on them.
I would happily eat anything, then lick the plate.

And when my end comes,
I will not fear it or sense it coming.
I will wag my tail.

The heart of a dog knows no boundaries.


[For Brenner, my forever buddy, on the day after]


Thursday, January 14, 2016

The Adventure Begins

This story is a chapter of a memoir focused on the insights I gained from interactions with certain notable people. All these stories are true. I admit, however, my memory may not be flawless.

Kate Mulgrew: The Adventure Begins


Kate in Reno Williams 1985


I paced up and down the sidewalk in front of a large movie theater in Times Square in New York City. It was a cool, clear evening on October 11, 1985. My girlfriend, Beth, went to the airport to meet her friend, Kate Mulgrew. They were coming directly to the theater.
I was early. A modest crowd had gathered. We were all there to attend the premiere of Remo Williams – The Adventure Begins. It was close to show time when Beth and Kate pulled up in a cab. I hurried over. Beth introduced me. Kate gave me a polite hug. She politely said that Beth had told her all about me. A few people in the crowd called out and Kate waived.
I found myself thinking, my God, she really does look like a movie star. She had a beautiful oval Irish face, clear blue eyes, narrow eyebrows and a perfect nose. At the time she was thirty years old, trim and fit. Her brown hair was swept up and back making her seem taller, more regal.
Inside the lobby a PR person from the studio took a quick picture of Kate and handed me some tchotchkes: a poster, a flyer, maybe a tee shirt or hat, I don’t remember. She also gave me a survey form to rate the movie. That was it.
For a split second I was a bit let down. I had been hoping to at least shake hands with some of the other stars of the movie like Joel Grey or Wilford Brimley or even Fred Ward. Well, it didn’t really matter. Nothing could break the spell. We were walking into a premiere with a movie star. I couldn’t believe my luck.
We took our seats just as the lights dimmed.
I admit I have never been a big fan of action movies, but it was quickly apparent, even to me, that this action movie was in trouble. The plot was impossibly convoluted. The casting of Joel Grey as a Korean master of martial arts seemed racially insensitive and more than a little implausible. The biggest problem was that the movie refused to take itself seriously. The characters constantly made bad jokes that made me wince. If the director was trying to channel James Bond or possibly Get Smart it didn’t work. Overall the dialog was dreadful. Even though some of the stunts were pretty amazing, it was obvious that the movie was going to flop. It did. The movie review web site Rotten Tomatoes now gives it a 46% approval rating. That seems a little high to me.
Sitting there in the dark with Kate in the seat between Beth and me I perked up when Kate’s character finally appeared on screen. She played Maj. Rayner Fleming, a Defense Department investigator responsible for monitoring a new weapons program run by the bad guys. She was terrific in the role. She somehow found a way to be utterly believable as an Army officer even when trapped with the hero in a glass cube about to be filled with poison gas.
Beth and Kate
I already knew a lot about Kate, thanks to Beth. They met back in 1975 when both were attending undergraduate school at NYU. Kate was taking acting classes and had recently landed a role in a new soap opera on ABC called Ryan’s Hope. In her role as Mary Ryan, Kate became a television star overnight. She was only 20 years old.
Not long thereafter Kate found herself pregnant as a result of an affair with a man also working on Ryan’s Hope. Beth provided unconditional love and support for Kate throughout the pregnancy. It was Beth who took Kate to the hospital the night of the delivery. Beth helped Kate during the difficult time when her newborn daughter was put up for adoption. The day Kate and her lover finally broke up she sought out Beth. The bond they formed has been life long.
After the movie the three of us had dinner then sat up late talking and drinking cheap white wine in Beth’s apartment near Washington Square in Greenwich Village. I was initially cautious in my criticism of the movie we had just watched. Thankfully, Kate was well aware that the movie was not destined to be great. She told us she only took the part because she needed the work.
The conversation shifted to how impossible it was for women actors to find good parts in TV or movies. Women were typecast. The best they could hope for was a role as a man’s girlfriend or sidekick but more often they were just used as sexy window dressing. Several times Kate emphasized that she preferred live theater because the women’s roles were more emotionally well rounded.
The conversation led me to mention a comic strip I liked called Dykes To Watch Out For by Alison Bechdel. In a comic strip that appeared during the summer of 1985 two lesbian women characters discussed why there are so few women heroes in the movies. They proposed a simple test to determine whether a movie was demeaning to women. To pass the test a movie needs to have (1) at least two named women characters who (2) talk to each other (3) about something besides a man. Movie critics everywhere now commonly refer to these three criteria as the “Bechdel test.” Remo Williams didn’t pass the test.
Kate and Beth laughed as they agreed that the movies were hopelessly sexist. It amazed me that with her tough personal experience of the utterly sexist American entertainment industry, Kate was still determined to work and succeed in that industry.  On further reflection I realized that even when playing a poorly written supporting role in a male dominated movie with clear misogynist undertones, Kate was able to find a way to at least partly escape from the stereotypes. Against these odds, the career military officer Kate played in Remo Williams successfully demanded to be taken seriously in a man’s world.
It was very late when I walked Kate to the corner store for cigarettes. When we got back to Beth’s apartment we said goodnight. I caught the subway back to my apartment in Brooklyn. I never saw Kate again. Never, that is, until I saw her ten years later on television.
I admit I was a casual fan of the original Star Trek television series. It aired during my college years and was standard fare in dormitory lounges. I loved the hokey special effects, the wooden dialog and the improvisational feel of the acting. It was fun to watch. I was briefly sad when the series was cancelled.
I was surprised but pleased when Star Trek was resurrected nearly twenty years later as Star Trek - The Next Generation. Patrick Stewart was great as Captain Picard. The dialog and story lines were now quite sophisticated and involving. The special effects were also pretty good. I didn’t watch every episode, far from it, but I saw quite a few over its seven-year run.
I tried to like the next Star Trek series, Deep Space Nine, but somehow I never became a fan. The acting and dialog were good, but the stories seemed static and derivative. I was still intrigued by the possibilities of space opera, but I didn’t feel the Star Trek universe was realizing that potential. I didn’t notice, therefore, when the fourth TV series was launched in 1995. Then one night while channel surfing I chanced upon Star Trek – Voyager.
Sitting in the captain’s chair giving orders to the crew was Kate Mulgrew. She had
Kate as Captain Laneway
matured as an actor. She carried herself exactly as a starship captain should. Better still, she portrayed a character that could make you care about the story no matter how improbable. She totally disappeared into the role.
I thought back to Remo Williams. Kate brought plenty of intensity to her role in that movie but her character never had a chance. Still even under those circumstances I could see a glimmer of the character that made her a great starship captain. Over the next seven years Voyager gave Kate as Captain Janeway plenty of chances to show what a strong woman leader might actually look like. In a very real sense Kate had been preparing for the role all her life.
Voyager passed the Bechdel test in every episode. Not only were there numerous named female characters, those characters discussed many issues most of which had nothing to do with their relationships. This is not too say that the show had shed all the sexist stereotypes of traditional space opera, witness the revealing costume worn by Jeri Ryan who played “Seven of Nine.”
Although Kate was wonderful in Voyager, her memoir, Born With Teeth, makes it plain that it was not easy for her. Although the entertainment industry was gradually starting to feature women in leading roles Kate still had to fight to get the role of Captain Janeway. Even after she was cast the studio executives remained skeptical for months. The show demanded long hours. This was difficult for her since she was recently divorced and was caring for her two young sons. I imagine that it was exhausting.
After Voyager went off the air, Kate toured regional theaters across the country in an acclaimed one-woman show specifically written for her called Tea at Five about the life of Katherine Hepburn. These days Kate is appearing on the cable TV series Orange is the New Black where she plays the truly terrifying kitchen matron “Red” Reznikov.
Kate’s career has been defined by her unbending determination to portray women as strong and capable people. It certainly has been an adventure. Now, thirty years after Remo Williams, she’s still showing us how it should be done.


References:

Born with Teeth, a memoir by Kate Mulgrew (Little Brown, 2015).